This is my first ever blog, and all excitement aside, I have the potential to screw it up! All laughing and "retard" comments allowed. Please just post hints in between snorts of mirth so I learn along the way.
Now that March is fast approaching I find allot of my plans for a great 2009 have already died, and I have had to re-think the possibilities of success in other areas of my life. First off I have had to learn that after 17 years of marriage it doesn't matter if I am right all the time. My relationship with my husband does not grow any stronger when I continually seek validation that I am smart.
Second, That my teenagers do have budding personalities, and will make choices (good or bad) that I have no control over. My parenting skills are not in question here. I can let them learn and grow and be right here to pat their back or pick them up when they need me.
And third, That God knows everything I am going through. I read these words in an article; "knees bend long before minds do". I have been praying for years! I have no delusions about the power that God holds, but I am a victim of fear! The world scares me! So slowly but surely I am surrendering myself to God. He has always had hold of me and lately I have felt the pull of his arms when I've pushed the boundary of his hold. I find it very comforting to be drawn back.
Mostly I am learning to love my life. Being imperfect is not the end of the world, it's a learning experience. I don't have the big house, a bank account full of money, or even perfect health. What I do have is a husband who loves me, enough money for the things I need, (and a little extra) and tomorrow.
I'll Pray To That.
Okay, now that you have me in tears.....
ReplyDeleteYou are an amazing lady with so much knowledge and love that you so freely offer to others. I am so blessed to have you for my friend. Thank you!
P.S. Good job on the blog :D